Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Life...As We Know It!!



Its amazing how life changes in a few seconds so drastically that even you don't know what struck you..I mean seriously...you are living your life......doing good with what you have and suddenly someone comes and changes your life completely...you of all people don't know what just happened...I mean that person becomes such an inseparable part of your life that you never know how did you even manage to survive without him for so long....and also thinking that how will your day be complete without meeting him even for once...you are angry on yourself that instead of enjoying the moment you are thinking this rubbish..but you cant just help it can you...you love it with him,hate it without him..want him to stay there all the time. Instead of enjoying the god's sudden change of plans to shower you with long overdue love from his side in his form, you sit and wonder at night,what the Hell is going on nowadays??? You never know how u managed your 20 plus life without them all this while...but now that you don't have to,its good that you don't have to..you just move on with it and of course taking him with you together in your life this time :D
   





"I want to hear a story grandma.....you promised..."

"Yes i did"...just like any other day i did promise my little grandchild a story, but the problem today was that i ran out of it...the last story in the story book had ended and there was no way i could repeat a story already told.she would know...anyways..i decided to let her sleep like this by postponing it till tomorrow but even still that didn't help. She got terribly upset and started sulking...of course 6 year old also have their way of revolt...she knew i can't see her crying and neither could i see her getting scolded by my son. This is the reason she chose the ultimate weapon...Tears...i just remembered my days when i was a child when everything i wanted was just made possible at the roll of a tear...that is the reason why i knew even Those tears weren't real..but me, being a grandmother now, couldn't afford to see my grandchild cry. so i took her in my arms..planted a kiss on her forehead and made her sit on my lap..her tears were already replaced by a smile accompanied by the rosy pink cheeks which got red due to her so-called crying :) but now she knew that one way or the other she is gonna get a story out of me for sure.So i started....

"..Long time ago, there lived a girl. Her parents loved her very much..she was very brave and loved to travel. Her parents were very good and always let her go to adventures on mountains and valleys and distant places on the earth. She loved to travel alone..she was a daredevil. Her parents always knew that even when she was head strong, she was responsible at the same time.They never stopped her from doing what she liked.....Slowly she grew older and time had made her even more outgoing and headstrong than she was, her demands slowly grew from cute innocent requests to bold outrageous demands, her parents slowly realizing where was headed, tried stopping her by fervor and by force..She on the other hand still unsatisfied with what she had and being a rebel that she was, just set off to see the far reaches of the earth leaving everything that she had and abandoning her parents forever. She thought what she was doing was right, of course she was just a young girl, barely out of her teens, and with her parents being so unreasonable in her mind, she was right. She slowly galloped over to the snowy lofty mountains of the north where she found a beautiful town with sunshine covering its field in the summer and snow in the winter..she fell in love with it instantly...she decided to settle down once and for all in that amazing town..slowly months passed and warm sunny summer was replaced by cold chilly winds of the winter..she loved the winter and loved playing with the snow on a chilly day..

..one day, just like any other when she was out all by herself, she saw a man struggling while putting the horseshoe on his horse..she stood there and watched him for a few seconds as he struggled to keep the horse still and lift his leg at the same time..barely able to put the shoe in place to pin it inside his hoof, she smiled to herself and finally decided to help..she asked in a low tone."Excuse me, do you need some help?"..The startled man looked up..their eyes met..and there it was..it was love at first sight...they couldn't manage to take their eyes off each other...it was only after a minute when the horse pushed the man back did they come to their senses..the girl couldn't suppress her laughter..and broke into a huge chuckle, even the man found it funny to laugh at his own little misfortune..he introduced himself as they shook hands and smiled.

This was the first time they ever met..slowly that introduction grew from just pleasantries to little details of each other lives and a single meeting of seconds grew to a lifetime of commitment..they grew so fond of each other that they decided to marry each other just after a month..the man's parents and relatives were happy for him but were also worried...."

"Why worried grandma?? You said love is a good thing? and that marriages are sacred??"

"Yes dear, of course its a good thing and of course marriage is sacred...but only when its with the right person."

"What do you mean? How can you say that? they loved each other..He was the right person!!"

"Yes dear of course they did..but what they never realized is that the feeling which they thought was love..was not love at all.."

(Interrupting)"..then what was it??"

"It was fondness my dear..as you know..the girl was alone in that town for months...she became emotionally vulnerable..you never realize when loneliness creeps into your life and slowly changes the person you were..you start to smile less than usual..you start to like being lonely..you start losing interest in things...you start getting weaker day by day...all the happiness in your heart starts leaving you one by one and before you know it...you are left with a big huge void in your heart...burning to be filled by something or someone..you then meet a handsome young man..who you feel is what you needed all your life..you feel a connection with him..Heart to Heart..but what you don't realize that in his heart even he is the same...sad and lonely."

"But isn't it good that two lonely heart become together to complete each other up?"

"Wow!!for a little kid you know too much about love..don't you my little angel??"

"He he!! no grandma..i am just curious...nothing else"..she said with a smile and her naughty eyes.

continuing..."Yes..it is good..but then they never gave time to each other to be themselves..you see in the early months..love seems to be like a fairytale..both of them put up their best behaviors so that the other one is not hurt, they say nice things so that the loved one is not offended..but as you grow with it..things settle down...the masks of superficiality are slowly taken off..each ones true nature is revealed to one another...and that's the true test of love...and when you pass that..only then do you know that you were made for each other."

"But what if you take off that mask as soon as you meet.."

"You can believe you did so..but then that's just you being naive..because the more you love someone..the more protective you are for them..and that's when you don't realize when you start protecting them from yourself..by yourself i mean the side of you which you know your partner wont like."

(After a while) "So you are saying they married too soon?"

"Yes, they never gave time to know each other better"

"So what now? What happened after that? Now they are married also? What if they don't like each other without the masks? What to do now??"

"That's exactly the question that was worrying the man's parents..that's why they were worried..he was their only son and they dint want his life to be ruined by a wrong marriage..but the man wasn't in the mood to listen..he was stupidly in love..so much so that he was blinded by it towards the world."

"Oh god!!then what happened? Did they love each other after their masks were off??"

"Well....Sadly..NO!!"

"What? so did they separate from each other??"

"No..well..they could not..because if they did...it could mean huge shock for the man's family..which he feared his parents won't take that well."

"Then what did he do??"

"He could do nothing but to live with it..there is a saying that you make your own choices and then you have to live with it..something similar happened to him as well..he made a choice which went terribly wrong..for both of them...but then they had nothing to do but to live with it..life became nothing but a big compromise where they got up each day to realize how messed up their lives are just because of that one wrong decision they made..they realized that falling in love and marrying was just the easy part..and living with the person not meant for each other is the brutest brunt life gave them..and they had nothing to say but to bear the burden silently all their life..it felt like that god is taking revenge of the misdeeds they committed in this life and the previous others...

Even as their first child was born...their sad life was filled with cheers of a growing child for the first few years..but even that..couldn't take them out of their misery...the saddest thing was that they always had that feeling of What-life-could-have-been without each other..and a child meant only one more reason to continue...the once adventurous and cheerful girl was replaced by a sad old grown up lady whose daily routine was similar to that of a nurse and the handsome man with a stupid smile was replaced by a old wrinkly and freckled face which did nothing more than grumble at everything that..."

With this I suddenly saw my angel's watery eyes...i stopped...i asked her what's wrong..

She burst in to tears..saying that how is it possible??...how can this happen??...every story has to have a happy ending...why not this one..you always told me stories which ended so well with the people in it so happy...then why this one today??that too when its your and grandpa's 40th anniversary tomorrow..

"Well child!! Because this IS a true story..and I told you this story because I want you to make the right decisions in life by giving time to the important ones..and not rushing it through..for what you know life is not always a bed of roses my dear...This is life..As we know it!!!"